The passage at the top of page 267 was powerful in my opinion. He is verbalizing the notion that he has feared for so long, the terror Wright writes about at the end of Part I is becoming the truth and reality of his own life. Before experiencing the North, specifically Chicago, on a first hand basis he has a utopia picture of the culture there and is moving solely to seek a better relationship with his community, including self worth and equal rights. But, living in Chicago he only realizes that racial boundaries are ever present there as well. "I was going through a second childhood; a new sense of limit of the possible was being born in me. A dim notion of what life meant to a Negro in America was coming to consciousness in me, not in terms of external events, lynchings, Jim Crowism, and the endless brutalities, but in terms of crossed-up feeling, of psyche pain. I sense that Negro life was a sprawling land of unconsciousness suffering, and there were few but Negroes who knew the meaning of their lives, who could tell their story." In the South Wright had learned that blacks were expected to act a certain way and their behavior must be submissive toward white people in general, he knew that he must get out, hoping to find equality in the North and a meaning in life other than through suffering, but he only comes to the fact that his idealistic views of the North are wrong and he quickly must find ways to diminish and forget those hopeful dreams of finding an inclusive society, being a black man.