The concept of always having two contradictory thoughts in your mind is what has resonated with me most so far in class. The discussion and comments made in relation to this idea have prompted me to question myself, and whether or not I always fit into this specific perception of human relationships. The relationship of how I perceive myself is obviously different than how other people see me, but the real question is do my actions reflect the perceptions of me coming from other people. I think yes, I think all people act in response to others reactions. People continue to search for acceptance no matter what group they are attempting to become a part of. Even the so-called “outsiders” or people trying to NOT fit in are in realty fitting in, yet they are fitting in with the outcasts. Our culture as human beings has a characteristic of wanting to be with others, our nature is to feel a part of something, despite the fact that we might have to change ourselves to become a recognized part of the group. We have grown up being altered and advised to be a specific way or play a certain part. Forget the fact that maybe those roles are different from each other, they community you grow up in shapes the adult and individual you will become. The atmosphere of the person is ultimately deciding who the person is.
Now that I have put it in words it becomes kind of creepy. To realize you in truth aren’t yourself unless your are being accepted as your self is scary. This makes life seem like a constant strive and steps of changes being dictated by the people and places you surround yourself with.